“You’ve got the holy family with you,” said the theologian, and I was glad my connection had been noticed.

My novel, Livskraft – en nøkkel til frihet from 2022, will soon be released in English under the title Alchemy of the Hidden Spring. It explores how sexual force, or the life force, can heal old traumas and wounds, thereby liberating the individual.

As I’ve mentioned before, I wrote intuitively. I was even surprised myself by the number of biblical figures who appeared in my characters.

In my novel, sexuality isn’t depicted as a forbidden force but as a powerful healing force, showing how our most fundamental energy can lead to freedom. By allowing oneself to face all emotions and pain that arise, one can use orgasm to heal the blockages stored in the body. “Put pain into pressure and make it into pleasure,” as they say. In my story, they work with exactly that.

The water element is what we associate with emotions. Water can lie still, like a mirror-smooth surface, and in those moments, we are in complete harmony and balance. Simply sitting by calm water can help us find equilibrium. Yet, thoughts can come and disturb, creating turbulent emotions, much like the wind stirring up waves in the water.

Water can also arrive as powerful waves that must find their way. There’s no stopping them. When strong emotions come, you can’t hold them back; you have to feel them.

After a time of calm, something will always come to set it in motion.

We don’t want dirty water, so we do what we can to cleanse it for our well-being. The same goes for dark emotions – they pollute us, making us feel bad and, in the worst cases, even sick. Clean water can help us feel pure. How many times have we felt heavy or had a bad day, only to feel much better after a shower?

Water is emotions in motion – e-motions. Water flows freely without resistance, and if you resist your emotions, they don’t flow freely. Not everyone wants to feel their emotions. Some see it as a weakness and push them aside, like an iceberg hiding beneath the surface.

Some emotions are too painful to feel, so it may be necessary to push them away for a while. But if you don’t feel them, they’ll get stuck in your body, forming an armor. Eventually, you may experience physical pain or even illness.

In Alchemy of the Hidden Spring, the water element represents the free flow of emotions, like water itself – calm or turbulent. Sexual energy is not merely physical; it becomes a means of releasing pent-up trauma, making healing possible.

Ewa, one of the main characters in Alchemy of the Hidden Spring, is marked by traumas she suffered early in life. For her, releasing sexual energy was crucial to releasing all the emotions stored in her body. Yet life brings new challenges, and when she has to leave her oasis, she’s in a deep crisis. Her husband urges her not to look back, but she can’t let go of all that has happened. When I wrote this, I thought of Lot’s wife, Ruth, in the Bible. Like Ruth, Ewa couldn’t resist looking back. Ruth turned into a pillar of salt, and when Ewa looks back, she freezes. It’s a metaphor for how frozen emotions form an armor around the body, preventing sexual energy from flowing freely. How will she manage to leave her life and family behind and move on without them? Ewa will need to release her armor once again to let her emotions flow freely.

In the Bible, Sodom and Gomorrah were described as sinful places that God had to destroy. Without other comparisons, the oasis in Alchemy of the Hidden Spring and the people there are also seen as sinful. They are perceived as a threat because they’ve freed themselves from societal norms and rules. The story hints at how shame and guilt around sexuality have been used to control people in different cultures.

One of the characters in the novel is Jacob. He “bathes” those who come to him for help. Here, too, I wanted to bring in some biblical associations, namely to John the Baptist, who also used water to wash away the old and create space for the new to come. In baptism, people were cleansed of their sins so they could receive forgiveness.

In the novel, people come to him in droves to be bathed. The water element strengthens the connection to emotions that rise to the surface. Finally, they can release the old emotions that weighed them down, and they can forgive themselves. This is a cleansing process, a path to self-acceptance.

Maria, Ewa’s daughter, stands out and is described as so pure that energy flows freely within her. She doesn’t need to work on releasing sexual energy because she has no blockages. She doesn’t need to be cleansed. She is virginal in the sense that she has no unresolved emotions causing blockages. She carries no sin or shame.

And what happens when the son is born, when a new soul enters the world untouched by shame and free from generational scars? What does it mean to be born without shame? Some have compared this birth to the Christmas story, and for Maria and her son, this purity suggests a potential for true enlightenment. Can purity, the healing of old wounds, be a path toward enlightenment?

Through the journeys of Ewa, Maria, and their family, Livskraft explores how the liberation of our most fundamental energy can lead to self-acceptance and freedom.

What if healing could begin by embracing our most fundamental energy rather than denying it?

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